Judge me, if necessary ? even on an unimportant and inconsequential assignment'. Tandon's 'purpose' was to 'plead for making greater and better use of my services and I may give my most genuine, sincere and respectful assurance to PM that my conduct and performance will not give her any occasion to find me wanting in any respect. Dhawan, a major target of Tandon's barbs and back as the prime minister's special assistant, received a 'strictly personal' handwritten letter from him. She also asked him to work 'properly' at the Culture Ministry where 'no work is going on worth the name'.Įventually, Tandon reverted to Uttar Pradesh where he was serving as director of the state academy of administration when Indira Gandhi returned to power in January 1980. Even yesterday some people? came and made (she only says these things to cover up her lies) serious complaints against you'. When he made a farewell call on Indira Gandhi, she curtly told him, 'I have been receiving very adverse reports on you. But, as additional secretary, he was sent to the Ministry of Culture. The relevant file had lain at the PM's desk for months. The two were discussing the matter of Tandon's promotion to the rank of additional secretary. How can I be expected to speak to somebody whose conscience had died?'

No matter what happens I would consider discussing all this with her against my self-respect. Typical of what the author thought of the prime minister is his outburst to Dhar that he (Tandon) had 'not the slightest faith in the prime minister's sense of justice, nor do I feel even a bit of respect for her. Altogether, the book is a compendium of a million minutiae of the ugliness of the Emergency.

PMO Diary- II by B.N. Tandon